Thursday, July 2, 2009 / 9:14 AM
i cant believed this is the second timei shed tears for a guywho didnt deserve it AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLomg how can blythe be such a WEAKLING!zzzzzzzzzidiot blythe...i didnt expect a single bit for all this to fall in this waywas just another dinnerbut my heart was not at ease zzyst i was praying that God will be my strength to go pass this "crush"[i hate it totally zz its like a bondage]anws i didnt expect myself to feel so much todayand put doll in an awkward positioncountenance was negative negativetear ducts seemed to be on at full blastimagine crying twice in one dinner how bad was that?[was being paranoid too luh!] i hated dinner~zzzanws i just couldnt stand it the sight made me upset,disappointed,longing all at the same timeden just suddenly just felt alone.needa to get things outso i sms a person.just had a feeling to sms the person w/o an expectancy for a replybut hahaa i did get a reply...seeing the person call i just couldnt hold it backi cried at suntec leh so paiseh! zzz and with the rest therezzzzzbut i felt it was divine as thou it was all arranged by Godhow can things be so qiao1. i just had the feeling to go suntec2.i just sms the person a sad face3. the person said he was oso at suntec4.the person appeared aft i came out of toilet5. the person spoke as thou it was what God wanted to say to mehow divine is that man?!hahaanwsim really glad im able to share this with someone i know i can trustand someone who exp beforei mean when it comes to the matters of the heartlove seems to make a person v selfish and v blind[i dont understand why] zzzseems to suck u into ur own worldanws the advice the person gave was valuableand gave me a slap to wake up from my lala land!i may have cried for the guy i dont even really know and fully lovedi may have been the silliest person in the entire worldi may have been vulnerablei may have been exposedor the guy dont even give a single damn abt it [which i think so] hahaim glad that in this period when i needa God the most he didnt forsake meand it made me realised that God is divineGod is more real den wat we thinkGod is omnipresentGod works through people:Dnow it time to move on be wisei know deep down its tougher to achieve but God already shown himselfnow it my turn to take the word and do sth abt it!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDjust dont waste your time and tears on someone like himperiod.i hope this offends no oneesp the guy [if u read or wat so ever]u are good in ur waysbut God is in the move of moulding people and making us better rite!:Dand i know now it is really not the timebut YEAH!!!lets be friends!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDlalalalalalala~
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