blythetansuee 18 chc.n337.choir
<3 super junior and rollingstones!
Saturday, February 28, 2009 / 7:18 AM
been watching EXTREME MAKEOVER HOME EDITION! woots think every episode i watch i have been crying la the people really vvv poor thing yep i love it man the houses are all so GORGEOUS! haha anws sth so ironical happened just now haah i bought the SHAPE magazine [health and fitness mag] and a bar of CHOCOLATE! how ironical is that LOL! and the merlion got struck by lightning how interesting is that haha and svc really rocked today! series of making marriage work is power haha and PASTOR KONG rocks haha so tired but still full of energy and uses twitter and facebk how cool is my pastor man! haha
Thursday, February 26, 2009 / 9:35 AM
so it was a really fruitful day haha i decided to revamp my walls starting with my bedrm wall haha from 3pm all the way to 1am crazy me haha
{ PEEKTURES! }
TADA!
{ "FINAL PRODUCT!" }
HEHE
my hand hurts
tmr shall conquer the "BLUE" wall and the "SMALL" wall in my living rm^^
nites
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 / 9:13 AM
yo! went out lunch and shopping with papa bought loads of things haha i know papa "hates" gg out with me! anws bought a SKIRT! [chio-o-o], makeup and brushes, accessories! yo haha pay's in! and half's gone! YEA haha all of valid reason^^ must start being less spendthrift! did u now tat DBS estimates job loss up to 99,000 by mid nxt yr i got a SHOCK sia! sobssss but! i just bought contact lens!! haha 50bucks haha dont kill me...they are just so BIG haha! yes hypersize lens scared i will look weird sia PRAY NOT! otherwise waste!!!! >< anws tmr's plan is to draw my walls ! haha found this webbie full of SUPER SUPER DUPER UBER cute wall designs and me being "ARTISTIC" shall try to draw and paint them out! LOL http://www.miraentuinterior.com/?seccion=catalogo&categoria=1
i love britney shes funny and hot!haha You and I left alone, cannot be trusted There's a lust, we can't control Slow we undress, just to dress And unless I say goodnight I know we're only gonna move too far Please, I'm not quite ready for that next level One kiss and that spells trouble You could talk me in, talk me into it If you wanted to do You could talk me in, talk me into it If you only knew Yeah, I'm likin', I'm likin' the way you do-o-o-o What you do-o-o-o to me I, I don't wanna lose control Control, control, control But then again, I think I wanna lose control Control, control, control Ain't nothing wrong with a little bit of Trouble, trouble, trouble, trouble, trouble Trouble, trouble, trouble, trouble You and me, that equals Ain't nothing wrong with a little bit of I get down, I surprise you Don't you push me, let me in your crib today Next day I'll snatch the goods away You're not listenin', watch me now 'Cause I'm a good girl, but I can be bad You're not quite there, you're not on my level Trust me for you, I'm trouble This is a warning, I'm warning you You're taking too long I trynna play laid back and be cool But boy, you're playin' it wrong It's in your eyes, You're really really lookin' like you wanna do somethin' Like, like you wanna do somethin' Boy, you better get it right If you don't, you're gonna mess around and do somethin' You're gonna mess around and do somethin'I, I don't wanna lose control
trouble?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 / 8:31 AM
you see WORDS are alphabets linking together to make sense and from these alphabets promises are always made words, in fact, are taken granted for by the mouth i love you, i really do
wat does this picture represent to u? did u think of "LETTING GO" well to LET GO is to: a.to release one's grasp or hold b.to free; release. c.to cease to employ; dismiss d.to become unrestrained; abandon inhibitions e.to dismiss; forget; discard well seems easy arh just words said out but wat izzit like to let go someone/something that u had LOVED with your heart? and u gave a portion of yourself/put in alot of effort into it because u loved it/he/her how to let go? find hatred in the object/person to replace it with love?
let go letting go im letting go i've let go
this year's mottos: 1. to embrace losing weight healthly and toning up 2. to build up vocals haha since i started shall not waste all my efforts and "sufferings" haha SHALL CONTINUE TO PERSIST ON!!! yeaa
Monday, February 23, 2009 / 8:55 AM
to stand every wkends to lead with voice
to sing almost 24/7
singing is definately not for the weak at heart
it takes 1% of talent and 99% of hardwork
it takes the body mind spirit soul and heart to sing
and not just sing but bring forth the message within the song
and not just make copies of the notes of the song
to train up the vocals
its not just a one time thing
is consistency
is hardwork
is discipline
is passion
is waking up and slping with the thought of it
is life
is motivation
anws today resumed vocal class
man i tell u
i tot i have improved alot
but! urgh
long way
but i want to be at my best
(:
i need discipline and work hard
YESS! haha
Sunday, February 22, 2009 / 11:21 PM
singing is like a natural thing for all but those who really sing ! man speechless man i really love beyonce, whitney, mariah and christina omg all these voices is wat equates to singing !
can i be as good?
I REALLY WANNA GO SHOPPING and i really need kachings to shop haha !
Saturday, February 21, 2009 / 9:36 AM
alone yet not alone and all i see are backs and all i hear are the chatterings as a soul stood in the midst of all the craziness of the world as i wonder where i belong as i ponder the blankness of my mind a soul stood in the midst of all just by herself looking down upon the floor i see my shadow my shadow is my friend looking up to the sky i see the night sky full of stars the stars are my friends wondering who i should smile too i chose not to wondering who i should laugh with i chose not to but i chose to be quiet who do i go to? who can i go to? so much sadness and so much comfort unnoticed rejection who can read the signs? tell me that you love me its you i yearn for but who can read the signs? but who knows? for man sees the outer appearance but God sees the heart. God, is where i love to run to hearts.love
cause you are so yesterday wats ahead is so much brighter and better urgh irritated,pissed off! haha no idea wat u are thinking man!
hanged out with wei,ck,gwyn and kevin woots enjoy the hour at gloria jeans while me and wei ate bens and jerry haha nxt sat got MJ networking session haha get to know more ppl haha! super funny ok tmr gg to tan with fam.joey.ying woots! ^^
Friday, February 20, 2009 / 8:50 AM
There's so much craziness, surrounding me There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me You make it real for me
When I'm not sure of, my priorities When I've lost sight of, where I'm meant to be Like holy water, washing over me You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby You are the only one who saved me That's why I've been missing you lately Cause you make it real for me When my head is strong, but my heart is weak I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak You make it real for me
no one will make you more upset and disappointed then those you love guess i wont be so upset, so confused, so in between if you dont mean anything to me guess you do no matter wat and maybe its my fault that i make everything in such a state like now and seems like it cant be undo im sorry just forgive me too if u ever read this and know who im referring too sometimes things aint just one party's fault as it says takes two hands to clap cant just be your fault
IM ON HOLIDAYS! DATE ME OUT I BEG HAHA
Thursday, February 19, 2009 / 8:09 PM
i ask you how are you nowadays? when the sun shines through the window, i yearn for you even in my dreams i want to meet you the stone path in front of the door has turned into sand if i could just see your footsteps forever
last day of exams haha the paper....mmm...sucks BIG TIME urgh among all BEHAVIOUR MODIFICATION IS THE WORST MODULE EVER~!!!! haha bad bad haha anws went to catch HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU with melia,joey,xan,mama and hazim this show IS A MUST WATCH! its relevant, its funny, its romantic! haha super niceeeee haha it really is relevant very true the WOMEN are very COMPLICATED and MEN are just plain SIMPLE thats it haha so its holidays must start planning what i wanna do make full use but number one! PACK ROOM! haha messy messy MESSY! haha
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 / 3:14 AM
what doesnt kill you will make you stronger circumstances and what ever crap shit that you dont want to go through ultimately will break you or build you "what doesnt kill you will make you stonger" have been put away by people coz reality in circumstance made this phrase so impossible only until people been through the situatio than this phrase seems more feasible but know that people before us have been through "hell" on earth so its unavoidable that we will pass through "hell" on earth before we can reach "heaven" bite the bullet and pass through its not going to be very long the end is coming if u believe its coming haha becoming quieter makes me see more sometimes things that i see scares me scares the hell out of me that i wanna run away from it its unbelievable but but i cant i cant seem to run away protect protect
Monday, February 16, 2009 / 10:36 PM
I see us in the park Strolling the summer days of imaginings in my head And words from our hearts Told only to the wind felt even without being said I don't want to bore you with my trouble But there's sumptin'bout your love That makes me weak and Knocks me off my feet There's supmtin'bout your love That makes me weak and Knocks me off my feet Knocks me off my feet I don't want to bore you with it Oh but I love you, I love you, I love you I don't want to bore you with it Oh but I love you, I love you, I love you More and more We lay beneath the stars Under a lovers tree that's seen through the eyes of my mind I reach out for the part Of me that lives in you that only our two hearts can find
urgh! im on my JM craze again i love the formal and sunglasses look haha he changed alot sia haha
Sunday, February 15, 2009 / 10:55 PM
the word is MOTIVE/intention mo⋅tive noun, adjective, verb, -tived, -tiv⋅ing. –noun 1. something that causes a person to act in a certain way, do a certain thing, etc.; incentive. 2. the goal or object of a person's actions: Her motive was revenge something so pure and simple can be ruined due to the motive behind it eg: falling in love either u really fall in love or u fall in love with the person [for money?for body?] scary how people thinks even im afraid of myself haha ROARS! bio really is a love/hate subject haha i really really really love bio but the teacher made it so boring haha and now im struggling revising it lol and tmr's the paper in theMORNING!!! i really do hate morning paper haha cant wait for thurs!! and its theHOLIDAYS! so many things i wanna do and need to do need to clean my room ITS ULTRA MESSY like no one's business wanna paint my room^^ go shopping [got loads of vouchers haven use^^] wanna play guitar again,go for vocal lessons,go clubbing,go exercise,go shopping at thrift stores! but i only have 3 short weeks to do all haha den its attachment again! hah lalala~ im really in love with vivian dawnson's look! and jesse mccartney's look and song: it's over omg help~ KIV aka keep in view... now things arent in my control i dont know what to do? i guess just let it be KIV-ed? and dont be bothered by it? i seriously dont know you im not sure izzit my fault for a wrong mindset? tell me about it anyways had loads of fun today going out with gor and mama haha! happy happy! love it man miss times when we were younger we always go out hang out ^^ i need to seriously study le haha
Saturday, February 14, 2009 / 10:10 AM
wats valentine's day without going out with the girls!!!! haha joey yi-unattached yingying chiobu-maybe gg to be attached? fammy love!-half attached half single LOL love man! haha
im like chionging for bio paper on tues fainteds keel me love joey yi for tonning over to study and im still blogging haha
Friday, February 13, 2009 / 8:53 AM
ho ho ho HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! love love love
honestly i cant imagine being attached haha scary~
Thursday, February 12, 2009 / 8:32 AM
was watching american idol just now omg kill me cant believe tatiana is still in! WTH she is ANNOYING omg so wat if she got the vocals she just dont have the X-factor to be a star!celebrity! she will be hated until she realises it omg kill me i hate american idol
but nvm i still love ADAM LAMBERT, ANOOP DESAI, DANNY GOKEY, LIL ROUNDS omg these people! their vocals are ! LOVE! haha but im oso sad that JAMAR ROGER ;[ i really liked him haha
as i watch the final chosing of top 36 i watch as how the contestents receive the news whether they got through or not omg is soooooo scary simon is really bad...haha good and bad...truthful but hurting see as their dreams get shattered over night despite all their hardwork they gave i cant imagine if one day someone comes up to me and tell me its over i wont imagine a day like that well i guess also after dreams and passions being shattered how we chose to continue whether we chose to continue doing wat our passion is whether we chose to keep on keeping on and trying and trying till our last breath den thats passion.fire.undying tats it!
life is always tough and who can we blame? family?friends?environment? guess is to an extend but is how we chose to live our life that will determine everything if we just keep blaming factors around us that draws us down and blame them for bad things that happen but actually if we chose to turn the bad situations, bad environment for our good wonder how much more you can actually already achieve in the years u have lived? URGH i seriously think its the valentine's day atmosphere urgh haha i wanna be attached too haha experience it~ haha nvm oh well eh today had my FIRST PAPER!!!!!! URGH stupid MCQs wth haha super tough saq was ok...made a few mistakes ;[ nvm at least a B? haha
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 / 9:49 AM
Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God,and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." is a very simple yet powerful verse a very simple but requires humility and obedience sometimes we can v caught up in life very busy with things very frustrated over things that cant be solved sometimes is just about putting those away and seeking God first tough i will say because being us...sacrifice is always hard this wk super super packed up focusing on studying and studying all i wanted to do was study didnt really want to go pm but decided to attend evening de man and the rest of the day when super well received and ready lightened and more confidence
another thing i recieved today was about emotions "Emotion is a good slave but a bad master" youths being at our age we all want to get attached! we yearn for it man hahaha but sometimes we allow emotions to direct our way in choices we make we just dont bother looking in long term perspective~ nt just wanting to get attached but other things making decisions in other ways if we allow emotions to be the master we can easily make wrong decisions~ its always abt the will,the mind first set ourselves to do and go for it... in relation to attachment recently seen quite a few ppl getting/wanting to get attached izzit coz valentine's day is coming? haha the hormones start workin up more?haha relationship can put in 2 ways either it tears u down or encourages but its always dependent on the chosen other half good man & good woman but normally ppl would want to chose good man & better woman [vice versa] den obviously will tear down and looking into long term and short term sometimes is oso important~ and season is always important time for everything~ so everyting still boils down to the verse seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. things is we must nt forget that God has already plan out our life even b4 we were created is just whether izzit the time for the different stages to be place into our lifes ^^
Tuesday, February 10, 2009 / 7:42 PM
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell
the world's just too dangerous need to learn to pick up signs freaking wolf in sheep clothing and now u make me ask myself again oh well go ahead do watever everything is now a pinch of salt i'll be careful~ coz u make me sick
just one more day to AN exam crap shit haven finish yet haha chiong~
dont you find it interesting how things work out and how things dont work out and you find yourself learning more other youself and about other people both good and bad wonder which part of the brain does all these?? haha everytime im stressed out and only want to do one thing [eg.: in the exam period i just want to study and nth else] im on my most irritable mood my most sensitive period [i read into tones more....i hate tones that are defensive and pinpointing me in this period seriously] my most attitude problem period apologise if i offended anyone sad har? i must really really try to change this maybe it shld have a name for this: prolly STRESS OUT SYNDROME [sos] hehe anws decided to attend prayer mtg and choir prac didnt make the wrong decision thou my eyes are soo heavy already set have the strength to study just a little more haha OMG! 2 days to AN pray for me!!!!!!!!!!! GAMBATTEEEEEE i will do well!!^^
Monday, February 9, 2009 / 5:19 AM
i really do hate revising crap man brain want to explode coz too much info le!!! fool ok ok maybe i shld change it to i really do hate revising last min! cram cram cram cram cram cram cram cram cram im so scared now scared of all the infos and its only adult nursing one topic u know i still have pharm,bio,MH,abn psy, beh mod fool URGH but i do loveee studying at esplanade haha so niceeee haha there is the best so far for me besides home haha humans eating broccoli is like giants eating trees ^^
Saturday, February 7, 2009 / 9:49 PM
i think im a little bulimic thou i cant be diagnosed as one as i dont fit most of the category frm wikipedia:- Bulimia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by recurrent binge eating, followed by compensatory behaviors referred to as "purging".The most common form—practiced by more than 75% of people with bulimia nervosa—is self-induced vomiting; fasting, the use of laxatives, enemas, diuretics, and over exercising are also common the criteria for diagnosing a patient with bulimia are: 1. Recurrent episodes of binge eating. An episode of binge eating is characterized by both of the following: -Eating, in a fixed period of time, an amount of food that is definitely larger than most people would eat under similar circumstances. -A lack of control over eating during the episode: a feeling that one cannot stop eating or control what or how much one is eating.
2. Recurrent inappropriate compensatory behavior to prevent weight gain, such as: self-induced vomiting; misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or other medications; fasting; excessive exercise.
3. Self-evaluation is unduly influenced by body shape and weight.
4. These symptoms occur at least twice a week on average and persist for at least 3 months.
5. The disturbance does not occur exclusively during episodes of Anorexia Nervosa
you see i dont fall into this diagnosing categories but just that i tend to puke after eating most of the time sadly lets just give it a try? i try my vvv best i will make the effort but alot of things wont go back to the same i think its v human nature to feel/think/react this way right? once bitten twice shy? maybe? but for unity sake i will i dont want things to break and fall just because of a small issue reconcile? try try my vv best tats all i can promise difficult but i will try thats all i promise prolly the best has yet to come we all are still growing up and prolly coz female grow up faster den males so i will give time some more time? hopefully things will turn for the better for us my friend my once trusted friend hai saddens me to think abt it how abt u? STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!! URGH sucks to the max zzzzz but no choice luh~ ;[ haha manage to finish bronchial asthma BUT! i still have loads more to go! FAINTSSSSSSS and thurs is exams fri oso OMG haha
byeee be happy make merry live life let bygones be bygones forgive and forget move on
thats it~
had a really really good svc today very funny very relevant [not now but at least for the future] pst kong talked abt marriage in lieu to the upcoming valentine's day [one wk time] reinforcement to the married or gg to get married or newlyweds or couples preperation for the singles haha super funny the way he brought the message across haha
oh wells haha i really wanna get attached!!>< but no one just yet la haha so nvm ~ haha anws nt top priority should worry more over my studies first haha NEXT THURS!!!!!!!!!! omg soooo fast keel me fool oh watever
as usual be happy make merry live life let bygones be bygones forgive and forget move on
haha ^^
Friday, February 6, 2009 / 8:03 PM
yesterday was the last day!
super love this attachment thou its vv short, vv stressful [exams+attachment] and had some displeasure with ppl
but i still enjoy..i get to do alot more...think i prefer attachments den exams!
URGH and i love melia partner!^^
lovessssssss
oh wells
i know im harbouring unforgiveness
i try v hard to let go and be friends again
but i find it sooo difficult to become friends like in the past
just v difficult
not sure wats stopping it? unforgiveness?
sadded
feel v uncomfortable ard u
but i have no choice
im letting go alot of other things
except this
i dont know
all i know at this point im very confuse
have a lot to settle
yet i dont know wat to settle
i just know i want to do well for exams
but everything seems to be limiting the time to do revision
how to do well leh?
i dont really wanna do supp paper!
i want to enjoy my holidays!
URGH
bring me away
i hate where i am now, i hate everything now
the last thing i need is someone to come provoke me
period.
F*
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 / 2:28 AM
i cant help but feel sad i cant help but cry i cant help but wonder i cant help but ask why i cant help but to stay at where i am i cant help but hope i cant help but let freedom be a choice i cant help but focus on sth else i cant help but wish i cant help but try to wash away all the disappointments i prolly need to start disappearing and just be alone maybe one day just maybe start about yst attachment first^^ yes was the most reflecting day haha why? cause i have no idea why but i was sooooo blur when serving medications and got scolded by the sn till i was abt to cry! i was able to answer the sn but i have no idea why i didnt do it OMG faints why why?im still wondering why~;[ oh well at least she scolded me, so that i will take more caution when serving meds nxt time! so today i really did alot of things haha love my sn haha i seriously love my patients loads haha some very cute very nice to me hahaha! happy happpy^^ anws left TWO MORE DAYS!!! yeah which oso means EXAMS! oh man ALOT ALOT i really mean ALOT! i haven study yet ;[ howwwwww~ ;[ urgh so tired man haha anws just randomly posting stuff
I REALLY LOVE WAFFLE W VANILLA ICECREAM AND HONEY nyny has really good waffle coz its thick..loads of honey given too but gelare has really good ice cream and they give maple at the just nice amt. and waffles are half price every tues LOL i really love waffles now! keeelll me
NYNY has really nice ROASTED CHICKEN and CRIPSY FISH! pastas YUMMMY!
and lastly espalanade library cafe-PASSION is the best ever place to study it! WOOTS!haha