recently have been closer to choir mates
hanging out
having fun tgt
take loads of pictures
share about life and stuff
serve tgt
i really enjoy this few weeks to being together with them
not just those in the photos but all who have stepped into my life
serving in a big ministry is easy to feel lonely as though u are invisible
wk in wk out just come and serve den disappear
but i truely understand how a family would work in sucha big ministry
and i really want to try my best and all my frens to get to know more ppl in the ministry
making them feel part of this big big family
so that they in turn wont feel so lost or invisible
:D
anws had a really really good fellowship yst till 6am
near barney's hse
with barney tiramisu weiye lehbit hk
there are areas in with we suppress in
weakness we dont wanna show ppl
but aft yst i let a little out
i feel better
i feel that hey! its not that bad aft all
knowing everyone goes through such stages
and i felt really encouraged and challenged to do more seeking
be more discipline with my life
and not just waste my moments away
times when i feel so insecured and inferior
just by looking at the people ard me tat are close to me doing better and doing wat i desire to do
i ask myself and God is it really for me?
and i ask wat about me? have u forgotten abt me?
i feel sadden that why isnt it me?
and ya i suppress it and put on my bubbly facade
really feel like crying
but who to turn to ?
who will understand?
who will listen and not judge me?
who will allow a shoulder for me to cry and realise how stupid i am?
zzzzz
i really wanna go SOT!:D
SOT nxt year
but in the natural realm its impossible
needa serve bond
but theres such a great desire to go SOT before i step into the marketplace
i dont wanna go out and stumble
but i wanna be strong when i start in the work world
pls pray for me and i will start to pray and fast abt this!:DD
SOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!:D
yes!:D
make the feelings go
so i will feel better
nt so guilty to stealing glances
blah blah
temporary
hopefully:D
zzz
blythetansuee
