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Tuesday, June 30, 2009 / 10:26 AM

do not throw yourself to him
let him come to u instead

wisdom.
zzzz
i hate * now

super enjoy choir today:D
with lovesss:D haha
thk God for the opportunity to be able to serve for dec svc!
so exciting!:DDD
rising up:D

Sunday, June 28, 2009 / 7:13 AM

can i say that i was quite disappointed with what i saw?
yet i feel powerless coz i have no authority over it?
and prolly felt like a coward coz i had to shut my mouth instead?

i think as a singer
be it background, the choir or more so a main singer
besides having the stage presence, the voice
flexibility is v impt too rite?
adapting to changes
being able to change at last min moments
willingness to even just try to change when its for the better
isnt that part and parcel of singing?

if its for the best of all
i dont see why trying cant even be considered?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
lalala~
:D

anws been so packed with gg out with frens and project mtgs!!!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZz
zomg
seriously!><
peektures in FB!:DDD
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Friday, June 26, 2009 / 10:27 AM

i was upset
i was disappointed
i was utterly speechless
i hated it all
i was going to type a super uber long post about the situation
but

its still is a mistake
prolly smaller in perspective now
i dont wanna say too much
its only wiser this way
just let God lead the way
otherwise things may only get more complicated
zzzz
:D

so tough
so tempting
hahaha

Thursday, June 25, 2009 / 12:16 PM

i know i may sound mad but
i hate the feeling of vulnerable
i just want to always have that cheery side of me 24/7
but recently i cant help feeling vulnerable
esp towards a particular source
prolly is my weakness?
HHHAHAHAA
zz

i hate it
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

just doesnt seem to go
zzzz
it must be stopped!!!
zzzzz

YUP!
its VE annual bonding camp!DDDD
had a new member joining us for camp
walter chan HAHA!
can chap real well nt bad nt bad! HAHAHA
camp was WOW shocking HAHAHAHAHA
inside story
and i miss everyone
its always like tat one
zzzz
nvm monday got outing yo!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
yeah!:DDDDD

more peetures on FB~:D

Sunday, June 21, 2009 / 8:31 AM

God works in way u dont expect
God sends people to show He is real

think now is entering wilderness period
so zzz
hahaha
suddenly feel very vulnerable
very sensitive to things ard me
zzzz

but thk God for frens
who are there in times of need:D
and i wanna be there for u all too!:DDDDDD
lovessssssss

anws this wk cfm v busy le
project MTGS! with diff grps
camp
i wonder how to handle them
and make sure they will all be effective man!
GOD!

omgzzzz
haha
its a CRAZY WORLD AND TIME MAN!
HAHAHA

BE STRONG!

Saturday, June 20, 2009 / 8:41 AM

recently have been closer to choir mates

hanging out

having fun tgt

take loads of pictures

share about life and stuff

serve tgt

i really enjoy this few weeks to being together with them

not just those in the photos but all who have stepped into my life

serving in a big ministry is easy to feel lonely as though u are invisible

wk in wk out just come and serve den disappear

but i truely understand how a family would work in sucha big ministry

and i really want to try my best and all my frens to get to know more ppl in the ministry

making them feel part of this big big family

so that they in turn wont feel so lost or invisible

anws had a really really good fellowship yst till 6am

near barney's hse

with barney tiramisu weiye lehbit hk

there are areas in with we suppress in

weakness we dont wanna show ppl

but aft yst i let a little out

i feel better

i feel that hey! its not that bad aft all

knowing everyone goes through such stages

and i felt really encouraged and challenged to do more seeking

be more discipline with my life

and not just waste my moments away

times when i feel so insecured and inferior

just by looking at the people ard me tat are close to me doing better and doing wat i desire to do

i ask myself and God is it really for me?

and i ask wat about me? have u forgotten abt me?

i feel sadden that why isnt it me?

and ya i suppress it and put on my bubbly facade

really feel like crying

but who to turn to ?

who will understand?

who will listen and not judge me?

who will allow a shoulder for me to cry and realise how stupid i am?

zzzzz

i really wanna go SOT!:D

SOT nxt year

but in the natural realm its impossible

needa serve bond

but theres such a great desire to go SOT before i step into the marketplace

i dont wanna go out and stumble

but i wanna be strong when i start in the work world

pls pray for me and i will start to pray and fast abt this!:DD

SOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!:D
yes!:D

make the feelings go

so i will feel better

nt so guilty to stealing glances

blah blah

temporary

hopefully:D

zzz

Sunday, June 14, 2009 / 10:00 AM

went out with loves to marina ECP and potato's hse!:DDDD

super tired

now uploading peektures to FB!:DDDD

300plus

zzzz

anws super enjoyed today!:DDD

with doll,potato,barney,tiramisu and lehbit!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

lalalala~

just frens are hard to come by

cherish and love everyone one of them man!:DD

and we chatted today

got to learn alot more about den

like how chatty barney is

and barney's voice ROCKSSSSS! TO THE MAX!!!OOOMMMMMMMGGGGGG!:D

and potato is soooo cute!:D

and lehbit can really play the guitar well:DDDD

and tiramisu's cell backgrd

and doll is still so cute!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

xoxo

zzz

will be away for 3 days!

and will be back with eyebags

tat i cant predict!:DD

hahaha

Saturday, June 13, 2009 / 9:15 PM

supper!:D

tau huaying with justin, barney, tiramisu, nana and lehbit!:DDDD

yummmmmy~:DD

i have been suppering too much to often le!

but i super enjoy myself:DDDDDD

more photos at my FB acct. :DDD

loves

xoxo

anyways this few days been thinking alot

but nv really manage to blog it down

dont have time HAHAHA!

reflecting about myself and people around me

the relationships that i form

the way i relate to people

the image that i bring forth to them

think overall people will not take me seriously because

of the way i portray myself?

im v loud, v rara, v joker

but actually the real me is a v quiet and shy person

i have been "trained" to be so vocal, so loud hahaha~

i still love my quiet times

i still love to be on my own

i wish to be less loud in front of people

its a habit to be so vocal le

HAHAHA><

coz i want people to take me seriously

that they can depend on me for things:D

i like being a listening ear

i like to understand ppl and how they feel in situations

i like to be a support to people

i like to give

i wanna be a fren:D

Wednesday, June 10, 2009 / 8:45 AM

shall start off being random and say tat
yst on the way home saw a young man driving a super nice BMW convertible
but he was digging his nose at the traffic light
HAHAHAHH!:DD
and now im in sch lab
blogging away coz im really so bored~
one more hr to the nxt lesson
how i wish i could skip it but ya...HAHAA

anyways had a busy wkHAHA
haha sunday decided to go clubbing with ying,rabia,joey,js,ericko,dyanna
at POWERHOUSE:DDD
we queued for FREAKIING 3 HOURS
before we could go in la!
WTH!
><
went in suupppeerr packed man!
overload of guys there
crazzzyyyyyyyy
dance until so tired
leg muscles all firm le
HAHAHAHA:DDD
wed again~

wed:D
went to jw to find doll,alvin,thomas
for lunch
end up all busy ppl arh
only i super free
met them individually
HAHAHA
and stayed with thomas at jw church
i study he did forecast stuff HAHA
and i saw AHHHHHdi the whole time man!
omgggggggggggggg HAHAHAH!:DDDDDD
and also played with baby mckayla for awhile AHAHA
did i mention she is a super smart baby!:DDDDDDd
i love her to the max man!!
carry her until today arm suan suan de
HAHAHA:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
den went pm
den went shopping with papa!:DDD
bought wallet, shoe and bag=75dollars
:DD
and saw a girl omggg the way she wear SUPER CHUI! HAHAHA
really
the back is like corset style but use like ribbon tat kind of material to tie
den mid portion is bare
den can see her bra ma BUT HER BRA DAMN CHUI
omg
pls think b4 u wear cans
omg

i realised the current phone im using helped me to gain alot of new frens
coz my phone is so cute!:DDD
hahaha
this yr i made loads of new frens!:DD
so super happy and coz im always hanging out with them
i miss them so easily HAHAHA!:DDDD
quality time!:DDD
lovelove

and yst chat with barney, aaron and doll
so FRI dinner and supper?
sat mahjong?
sun ECP:D

hahaha~~
busy
holis are here !!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009 / 11:25 AM

zechariah 4:6
6 So he said to me,
"This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty.

SOS!:D

was aweeeeesommeeeeee!:DDD

hahaha

but we had to sit on stage!HAHAHA

i think jonathanwong was really funny HAHAHA

the bs was awesomeeeeeeeeee

sos is super interesting man!

was a whole new perspective of this book!:DDDDDD

and den off to supper!:DDD

at first we stood divided HAHA

but dont know why suddenly all decided to go tgt

and with us!:D

so theres ALVIN, JUSTIN, HANKIONG, BEN,CANDICE,NANA,THOMAS,PEREZ, MICHELLE, JAMES,WEIYE,KWOK LEONG

to makan sutra!:DDD yummy

ha!

super enjoy my fellowship time with them

kept on laughing loads man!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hahaha

a rare choir photo!

hahaha

its really a privilage to be a part of this ministry

in the beginning i didnt enjoy serving as much even though i love to sing and all

but as the days pass i began to find frens

started to be more open and vocal

and now i super enjoy serving and serving alone with this people!:DDDDDDDD

esp my girls CANDICE, RUBEZ, RONIA AND ALTHEA:DDD

the best sopranos haha [bias a little]

love!:DD haha

anws i just missed an opportunity

i really regretted it

was talking to chervelle about it

i really didnt know wat i was thinking at the pointSSS

when i didnt go and sign up for it

i really didnt know

and now i regret really bad

its my desire my dream

and now i just let it go

anws velle asked me to ask bel if she could help me

i was so scared to ask la

i mean its soooo last min and its 1am

the audi is like tmr

but i just went ahead to sms her

at least the end i tried?

oh man!

but after saying all this

i really still thank God for breakthroughs in choir

and opportunities to serve more

not just the wkly congregation

but oso fellow choir members

and making more frens in the midst!!!:DDD

love it!

i know i missed this opportunity

i learnt my lesson

the nxt one i will hold on to it tightly! dont let it slip away from me!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

God :D

Wednesday, June 3, 2009 / 7:09 AM

decided to go to mount faber
school ended earlier
so
tada~
its such a gorgeous place man
especially at the henderson wave bridge place
at 4-5pm period
the wind is super strong
the scenery is really gorgeous
and just sat there and enjoy the slow passing of world man:DDD

good place to hang out and chill
more photos check out my FB
:D

im really addicted to vulnerable by vanessa hudgens!:DD
love the song and lyrics~

Tuesday, June 2, 2009 / 8:43 AM

Isaiah 40:30-31
30
Even the youths shall faint and be weary,

And the young men shall
utterly fall,
31 But those who wait
on the LORD
Shall renew their
strength;
They shall mount up
with wings like eagles,

They shall run and not
be weary,
They shall walk and not
faint.

life in nothing without the process of living it
the ups and downs
the trials and tribulations
the happy and sad times
many a times we get disappointed and discouraged by people and circumstances
we get angry
we sulk
we get frustrated
pull hair and everything

but at the end
i know things will work out good for those who trust in Him
and dilligently seek after Him:D

get tired and discouraged
but lets pick ourselves up from all of it
and run with God:D

know a good plan and destiny lies ahead of us!
:D

Monday, June 1, 2009 / 9:18 AM

today was a super suay day for me man!
hahaha
got up on the wrong side of the bed
firstly: i was late and i forgot to take my hp which i needed it for the day and thus i skipped tut! HAHA
second: my eye hurted so badly on the train due to my contacts so i took it out intending to rewear it. but i just would stay in and i ended up dropping on the mrt floor!
third: i had to go to yck mrt and wash it with wash before i put it back to my eye><
four: i had a massive mucus production THE WHOLE DAY! omg la! HAHAH super big some la, so paiseh
had to keep cleaning my eyes ><
five: i tried to call hankiong to meet him but turns out the no. was wrong! and the person kept prank calling back and make fun of me...but i didnt care...just pissed off man!!
six: i stained ><
seven: i realised aft mtg hankiong he oso copied my no. wrongly la!!!! HAHAHAHA
eight: we were late for our movie HAHAHA

but den again i really enjoyed myself today!
i manage to have a good breakfast...vv essential for the whole day :D
group project was CRAZIEEEEERRR den usual...no idea why
the movie MONSTERS VS ALIEN was so cute..i really love BOB the blob man!!!! :DDDDD so cute! omg
and i had 2 BIG JOKES OF THE DAY
courtesy to mr tan han kiong :D
1.we both saved each other's no. wrongly!
and the wrong no. was half 8 and 4 AHAHA
2. and he sms the wrong person the following sms: "sorry i will be tad late. need to wax my legs. hair showing through the leggings" HAHAHAHA...had a previous inside joke
omg the person must have been SHOCKED HAHAH!
i couldnt stop lol-ing :DDD
thks man..tat made my day

den aft movie we went to chill and crap at THE CATHY which hankiong's cell ppl
so funny HAHAHA
and joseph alvin and hankiong ARE ALL CRAPPY guys man
omgggg
and i love candice!!!
tmr shall post some pictures :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

im rushing my freaking report for tmr
and i have 8am mtg haha
and candice and amanda keeps spamming my FB MAN!
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I think about you and me
I get a litlle weak in the knees
I feel the flutter of a butterfly
Sometimes I can hardly breathe

So babyHold me now
I can't tell if I am lost or found
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
And I don't know how to let you in
Or let you go
I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now
Please baby don't let me go
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
I know for sure that you're the cure
Coming down with a case of 'I love you more'
I don't want to be vulnerable

When it comes to this book for us
I think it's time now to turn the page
But I don't wan to say I love you first
But my heart it can hardly wait
So babyHold me now
I can't tell if I am lost or found
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
And I don't know how to let you in
Or let you go
I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now
Please baby don't let me go
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
I know for sure that you're the cure
Coming down with a case of 'I love you more'
I don't want to be vulnerable

I don't wan to see you hurt
Don't you worry baby girl
Take my hand, understand I'm afraid
To tell you the very worst
That you want to hear me say
When you say it here tonight
Will you mean it for life
Will you tell me everything
That your heart is really feeling for me
So I won't be vulnerable