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Saturday, January 10, 2009 / 9:09 AM

Psalm 139:16 (New Living Translation)
"You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed."

human have insecurities
we simply cant predict how tmr is gg to be, how our future is going to be.
i worry whether will i do well for every sem in poly
i worry whether will i be able to get attached and marry
i worry about my vocals
i worry about my looks, my weight
i worry about ppl's impression
i worry i wont be able to be successful in my career

because i know there will always be someone better than me in what ever i do
i envy ppl who are prettier coz guys will pick them more
i envy ppl who are slim because they get to wear nicer clothes
i envy ppl who can sing better den me coz they make me feel inferior [vocals is all i have haha]
i envy ppl who are smarter den me coz it means i wont be first
i envy ppl who have someone who love them and vice versa but i dont

but all these becomes the foothole for the devil to invade and manipulate
cause we dont realise that even before we are born, our destiny has already been written
how our life will be has already been laid out

i never realise how much emphasis God has placed upon each and every individual's life
that he has created. everyone is a state of art, a clay in the potter's hand, a custom hse that God wants to build
i never see beyond who i am now. well definately i tell myself that i can do it, i can succeed
but never the conviction to be consistent to achieve watever i set out to do.half hearted here and there

even before i finish living this life
a book has already been written about me and my destiny
and where i am gg to be
just that i have yet to have the opportunity to read it
but realising that my whole life has already been laid out the moment i was in God mind
is the most wonderful thing i can hold on to as i approach life

i may still have weaknesses and insecurities
but it doesnt matter to me
because worrying over them would only equal to wasting precious time of my life

another resolution is that i want to stop worrying over everything and learn to put more trust and faith in God.if it is for me den i know it will come to pass eventually

wish everyone would find their security in God
no amount of chains or locks will be able to secure ur insecurities

anws today really had a super svc
i was in awe
woke me up to realise where i am in life and in my r/s with God
but was kind of upset with self for blanking out during fellowship
i didnt eat anything just sat there and stone away
;[ sadded
the worst was i had no idea what was gg on in my mind
as i said i blanked out..was just wondering what i was wondering haha
yea

anws weighted myself just now
for about two weeks i lost 4kgs le!
haha
and my nursing uniform is super loose now
^^
ELATED!DELIGHTED!
haha

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