but i cant help it
is about the weight issue
sadded
im very on off regarding this issue
once i lose i put back on real fast
and seriously i dont wanna be fat anymore! sadded
if u never been fat before dont call me silly for trying to lose in whatever methods there are
i guess FATNESS is something i hate...imagine being teased at...feeling inferior....cant wear nice clothes
i dont feel very inferior just coz im fat
but to the extend i will question myself why didnt i have more discipline when i was younger like in sec ;[ when i had more chance to exercise
;[
thou i always tell people dont diet, dont starve themself. must at least eat sth more nutritious
i actually starve myself...or vomit out esp when im too full
i know i dont practise what i preach
i just dont feel like eating
coz I AM FAT.PERIOD.
anyways haven been eating much for the past 2 days
thou i lost a bit
it will be gained back again cans!
CNY i fear the most now!!!!!!!!!!! coz the goodies are just too good! haha
anyways because i haven really eat much this 2 days
i do feel more tired easily, more hypo and more N/V
even when im not on the drug [duromine]
hai but i cant help it
coz when i see the outcome of doing so
i m happy haha
watever
call me crazy or silly
unless u been through it
you cant understand the desperation
not that i dont love my body
i just want to be gorgeous too
im young..i dont want to waste it haha
aim for curves...im not into slim-ness
curves are better LOL!
for the past 3 mths [frm nov till now]
i lost about 10kg le haha
hai
if im happier this way just leave me
blythetansuee
