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2009-12-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

im currently obessessed with BLYTHE DOLLS!
shall post picssss another time but
awwwwwww they are just soooo gorgeous!
but too ex for me to collect lol

anws first day in ward
got little scolding><
urgh cant click with think 2ppl
URGGHH
hate it
feeling so inferior la
i so scared i wont do well :(
sobs
GGGGOODDDD
only u know how i feel
just feel like crying.....i wanna do well!
i wanna be a good nurse
time to work hard and dont be so blur luh

tired blythe:(
im waiting for u
but u seemed to disappear today:(
sobs
meow~
but its time to let u go cause shes back:(
lol

2009-12-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

Before I get into unwanted trouble I think I should begin to back away
I treasure this ship. Don't wanna spoil it:(
My fault to see u in my eyes:(

Haha
First day prcp
OMT super slackkkkk><
lectures aft lectures
And for the next two days !!
@!?&@$
Hahaha

I can't sleep
Waiting for u
Not
XP

2009-12-05T07:20:00.001-08:00

it just never happen to me
izzit coz i didnt pray hard abt it
or im avoiding it with excuses
or im just nt good enuf?

hai~
today is such a heavy day
frm the start to the end
i rmb 5dec09
burden burden

Dear love,
i wish i can take away all ur pain and hurts.i wish i can cry for u instead.i wish i could be there to hug,cry with u,assure u that everything will be alright.but i couldnt.i could only hear ur pain and cries and it broke my heart that i could do anything.i wanted to tell to someone about it to share but i found no one.i almost shed a tear too.i couldnt smile.i couldnt feel happiness in the house of God.i felt i was doing things for the sake of it.a show.people kept asking if im ok.why i look so moody.i wish i could tell them but i couldnt at that point.during p&w i couldnt conc coz i kept thinking of you.wonder how u are right now.asking God what i can do nad just kept praying for u...bcuz now i seriously dont know what else to say to u or how else to console u.except to just keep u in prayers and make sure my phone is full batt so anytime u can call me up...so worried that i never ur voice up till now..i pray for God's extra divine protection and comfort and love and tolerance to be upon u.that in this valley u will emerge so strong my love.wanna hear ur happiness ur joy ur laughter ur cute cute voice.i oso wonder when will this be over.in my heart just assured that u will emerge.u will get out

love
beef<3

2009-12-03T23:42:00.000-08:00

i dont understand this feeling
do u?

such a weird feeling
that bothers me
i fear
prolly loving someone else is easier?
:D

i should stop saying i miss aaron hahaha
seriously
otherwise no one will take me seriously
think no one is
so i should start taking myself seriously
plus im starting work
3mths in orthopedics ward
i dont know how im gg to survive but somehow i will
not by my strength!
seems so impossible to me but im gg to overcome it!:D
just give my best:DDDDDDD

<3

2009-12-01T09:56:00.001-08:00

i have no idea why i miss aaron quan and laopa soooo much
guess i really loveee them loads
feel vvv comfortable with them
really like brosss:DD
<3

so tired
but i miss them already thou i saw them few hrs ago hahahahaha
<3

JAMS church

2009-11-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

JAMS church
first time preforming and bv-ing!:D
suuuuupppeerrr exciting man i tell u!
the atmosphere is different
the congregation is different

even as i stood on the stage with althea love
as we sang our taylor swift song
seeing how the kids enjoyed and singing along really just light up my heart
and put a smile on my face
u just enjoy doing what u are doing
and the kids just stir u up to give even more of what u are originally called to do

so amazing u know
i wonder why main church congregation aint this way?
even the kids in JAMS can praise and worship God so wholeheartedly and fervently
why cant we.sets me thinking abt us.being to conscious of ourselves?

cant wait to serve more and to sing more and serve more and love more
:D
hahahahahaha

anws gg to be gone for FIVE days to BKK! w chanel joey js and doll
:DDDDDDDD
dont flood my FB!
<3

2009-11-18T08:26:00.000-08:00

hahaha
some people just dont have to do anything
they will just somehow make my day
or make me feel like headache
eg: baby aaron
or maybe im just bias but i dont care

anws i ought to slp
but to many things gg through my mind
[as usual..im a female URGH]
thinking of the fact im on am shift and i have to travel to geylang polyclinic to work
and so far everyone says HSE attachment is super boring.omt.kill me now.

then im so !#$!#$*&&#@ regarding the discussion.just wanna settle and put aside.aiyo
hhahaha

den mummy just made me so scaredddd when i start working..entering into adulthood.im really really vvv afraid..suddenly i just know i cant be who i am right now.and im nt coping tt fact well right now.the $$ issue.the education issue.hai.show me a way.prolly blog abt tt with a clearer mind another day ><

den my darlingggsssss.im having a headache.i love my darling chanel.and it leaves me helpless nt being through a relatioship and breaking up and recovering frm it.coz now i have no more words of comfort or advice to give.coz i really have to idea how it feels to be left dangling or loving someone soooo much its hard to let go.im oso feeling so upset coz im helpless and useless.i want my darling to get better.i want my darling to be happppy!and not just show darling is but darling is truely happy.:(...GODDD sos

den i dont know if i shld go fetch laopa and ben
:(.coz i miss laopa and he is gg away on sat and sun.means i wont see him for 2 wks

den today is my last dayy at ward45.im still missing my patients and new found frens and the ppl working there.

hai
i shld slp

SOS

2009-11-18T06:11:00.000-08:00

I WANT A NOKIA N97 MINI!
omt
this is like the first ever phone so far that i say i want sia
cause i really loveeeee my current samsung phone:DDDDDD
but this i likeee
so chio:D

anws today last day of work for me at the ward
sobssssxxxxzzsss max
im gg to miss working in that ward and with the people
so farrrr the best one i ever worked at
and my patientsssss
esp one uncle suppperrrr cuteeeee to the max
really sad that i have to leave man :(
gg to miss the people :(

and prcp attachment shld be out this wk le
OMT
so fastttt
7dec!!!!
but b4 that BKK! here i come
first time out of singapore with frens!
HAPPY:DDDDDDDDDD

the levite

2009-11-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

the levite
the tribe of israelites
the ones that lead the people of God into the presence
singing psalms during temple services

translate to modern day context
the worshipleaders,bvs,choir,muso
we are the tribe of levite in the church
no differences
we serve the same God
we have the same purpose
but i think as a choir member
sometimes we have the mindset that we are just at the background
so we dont have to be as disciplined when on stage or be committed to choir pracs

but thats a wrong mindset
we are part of the tribe of levites
if one portion of the tribe fails
the whole tribe fails
than how izzit possible to bring the people into the presence of God?

gotta change tt mindset!
we gotta improve as a choir
vocally and discipline
we need to move tgt with the rest
so that we wont hinder the people from entering into the presence of God
and that we will cause the whole church atmosphere to be lifted up:D

need to remember this
i need to rmb this
the levites
thats what we are all called to be
:D

2009-11-13T06:11:00.000-08:00

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go

Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
' Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
' Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

sometimes i wished i was a boy
sometimes i just find being a woman is so troublesome
being a man is so much more fun
get to hang with the guys
get rough
pick up girls
save $$ on clothes/makeup
have to opportunity to chase girls
get fitter in army
dont need to bleed mthly
have a special box in the brain called the nthing box:D
guys are simple minded
hahahahahaahha

oh wells
but i still thk God im a girl
prolly coz i can be sexy and whine
and just keep thinking and thinking
and just be chased
if i will ever be chased or liked

dang
hahahahaha
<3

2009-11-11T01:28:00.000-08:00

down with flu makes u crappy and haywire sia
HATE FLU
flu flu go away. come agn another day :(

2andahalf wks of attachment le OMT
so fast
i seriously will miss the ward im working in
suuper loveee=D
pray hard i will prcp in this ward!!!!:DDDD
plssssssss

anws yst's post so emo
hahahahaha
and im gg out soon!
so nua now
but promised dinner and timbre tonite le!
plus tmr AFTNN shift!
means can slppppp

<3
i miss my little miss slp hahahaha

Forget

2009-11-10T09:33:00.000-08:00

Wanna slp and forget about u
Forget all e silly worthless temporal unapplicable feelings about u
And wake up to a brand new morning to face bravely for another day at work

Hoping the nxt time I see u
U are just another fwen
Not Holdin on to any hope
But just smile a cheeky smile
Knowing deep down I'm not liked by u

Maybe I shld try harder not to seek for ur attn
But to try harder to love u as a fwen
Maybe if I just disappear
U will realise my presence?

Just wanna slp
And forget about u
To start things afresh

<3
I feel poetic
Xoxo

2009-11-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

have u ever felt an idiopathic feeling?
just dont understand sucha feeling would pop up?
and den u reconsider ur situation and find it not favourable
but this unknown feeling just lingers?
hahahahahaha
wat the crap rite?

tmr morning shift!
and another wk has pass!
OMT
2wks down!!!!!
and must be mentally prepared tmr
working w a vvv "special" sn
HAHAHAHA!:D

nitesssssssss
<3

2009-11-02T19:03:00.000-08:00

OMT
i woke up and i almost wanted to slap him
omt
oh God
hahahahahaha

make me patient.
sooooo patient that i will give up
:D

eh work
work again HAHAHA
and i so wanna go swensens with laopa but stupid workkkk
idiot
><
ok today's aim to copy down my case study and write/pass report!:D

2009-11-02T09:02:00.000-08:00

heart's heavy
:(
i hate it
both are kinda burdening me
one gd one bad
:(

working life is tough
hope im really prepared for it
and for prcp
><

anyways i found a picture of leeteuk frm super junior
super looks like AARONLEE my "baby"
:DDDD

2009-11-01T08:47:00.000-08:00

"Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing."

yeah
i think i will start blogging again
many many things have happened in this few monthsssss
:D

xoxo~

2009-07-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

AWEEESOMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEE:D
is like my favourite word right now!:DDDDDDD
haha
my turn to say my blog have been really dead this few wks
zzzzz
hahahaha!:D
anws i awesomely hearts potato and doll
awesome ppl awesome fwens awesome girls!:D

been really busy with choir and school
school is crazy!
apparently i have practical test tmr at 8am!!!
and theory test 5.30pm the same day too
awesome
and im still blogging away!ZZ
and FYP is dued in 2 WEEKSSSS TIME! and socio [thus far the worst presentation]
HAHAHAHAH:D

i need God's awesome strength seriously!
URGH!
and exams are in ONE MTH'S TIME!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
crazy
hahha
ok bye

alot to blog
coz a lot of feelings towards things
but maybe another time
ok loves?
:D
awesome

2009-07-08T03:37:00.000-07:00

2009-07-04T10:59:00.000-07:00

i really thk God for this opportunity to be able
not just to serve but also to rise up to a level which i thought i could reach
i really reflected on how i was today
and i realised that
i need to be not afraid of people ard me
[which i am always haha timid]
to be able to be more organised
to be more detailed with little things
even as i sing to focus more on God rather than wat if the choir makes a mistake
[i totally regretted this portion of not focusing more on God ;[ ]

i know every opportunity given
is a experience worth holding on to
be it good or bad
its growing of capacity that is impt
whether u get scolded or not
or praised or not
but its all serving God and serving others :D

i can never get enuf of HS presence
its overwhelming

shld stop
bye

2009-07-02T21:35:00.000-07:00

haha
sorry loves
sorry to doll
sorry to barney
sorry to lehbit
sorry laopa
let u all worry for me
i didnt want it to happen
;[
loves
thks
love all vvv much
:DDD

2009-07-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

i cant believed this is the second time
i shed tears for a guy
who didnt deserve it AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
omg how can blythe be such a WEAKLING!
zzzzzzzzz
idiot blythe...

i didnt expect a single bit for all this to fall in this way
was just another dinner
but my heart was not at ease zz
yst i was praying that God will be my strength to go pass this "crush"
[i hate it totally zz its like a bondage]
anws i didnt expect myself to feel so much today
and put doll in an awkward position
countenance was negative negative
tear ducts seemed to be on at full blast
imagine crying twice in one dinner how bad was that?
[was being paranoid too luh!] i hated dinner~
zzz
anws i just couldnt stand it
the sight made me upset,disappointed,longing all at the same time
den just suddenly just felt alone.needa to get things out
so i sms a person.just had a feeling to sms the person w/o an expectancy for a reply
but hahaa i did get a reply...seeing the person call i just couldnt hold it back
i cried at suntec leh so paiseh! zzz and with the rest there
zzzzz
but i felt it was divine as thou it was all arranged by God
how can things be so qiao
1. i just had the feeling to go suntec
2.i just sms the person a sad face
3. the person said he was oso at suntec
4.the person appeared aft i came out of toilet
5. the person spoke as thou it was what God wanted to say to me
how divine is that man?!
haha

anws
im really glad im able to share this with someone i know i can trust
and someone who exp before
i mean when it comes to the matters of the heart
love seems to make a person v selfish and v blind
[i dont understand why] zzz
seems to suck u into ur own world
anws the advice the person gave was valuable
and gave me a slap to wake up from my lala land!

i may have cried for the guy i dont even really know and fully loved
i may have been the silliest person in the entire world
i may have been vulnerable
i may have been exposed
or the guy dont even give a single damn abt it [which i think so] haha
im glad that in this period when i needa God the most
he didnt forsake me
and it made me realised that God is divine
God is more real den wat we think
God is omnipresent
God works through people:D

now it time to move on
be wise
i know deep down its tougher to achieve
but God already shown himself
now it my turn to take the word and do sth abt it!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

just dont waste your time and tears
on someone like him
period.
i hope this offends no one
esp the guy [if u read or wat so ever]
u are good in ur ways
but God is in the move of moulding people and making us better rite!:D
and i know now it is really not the time
but YEAH!!!
lets be friends!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

lalalalalalala~

2009-07-01T09:01:00.000-07:00

wipe away the tears and put on a smile
for sth greater is coming along!:D

reminder: to follow God's timetable.no use telling God to squeeze things that we want in between
we follow God's timetable not God following ours:D

had enough of my childish ways
i made my mistake
i made a joke
now its time to move on
move away:D

and not by my strength but by God's strength daily:DD

2009-06-30T10:26:00.001-07:00

do not throw yourself to him
let him come to u instead

wisdom.
zzzz
i hate * now

super enjoy choir today:D
with lovesss:D haha
thk God for the opportunity to be able to serve for dec svc!
so exciting!:DDD
rising up:D

2009-06-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

can i say that i was quite disappointed with what i saw?
yet i feel powerless coz i have no authority over it?
and prolly felt like a coward coz i had to shut my mouth instead?

i think as a singer
be it background, the choir or more so a main singer
besides having the stage presence, the voice
flexibility is v impt too rite?
adapting to changes
being able to change at last min moments
willingness to even just try to change when its for the better
isnt that part and parcel of singing?

if its for the best of all
i dont see why trying cant even be considered?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
lalala~
:D

anws been so packed with gg out with frens and project mtgs!!!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZz
zomg
seriously!><
peektures in FB!:DDD
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-06-26T10:27:00.000-07:00

i was upset
i was disappointed
i was utterly speechless
i hated it all
i was going to type a super uber long post about the situation
but

its still is a mistake
prolly smaller in perspective now
i dont wanna say too much
its only wiser this way
just let God lead the way
otherwise things may only get more complicated
zzzz
:D

so tough
so tempting
hahaha

2009-06-25T12:16:00.000-07:00

i know i may sound mad but
i hate the feeling of vulnerable
i just want to always have that cheery side of me 24/7
but recently i cant help feeling vulnerable
esp towards a particular source
prolly is my weakness?
HHHAHAHAA
zz

i hate it
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

just doesnt seem to go
zzzz
it must be stopped!!!
zzzzz

2009-06-25T11:57:00.000-07:00

YUP!
its VE annual bonding camp!DDDD
had a new member joining us for camp
walter chan HAHA!
can chap real well nt bad nt bad! HAHAHA
camp was WOW shocking HAHAHAHAHA
inside story
and i miss everyone
its always like tat one
zzzz
nvm monday got outing yo!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
yeah!:DDDDD

more peetures on FB~:D

2009-06-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

God works in way u dont expect
God sends people to show He is real

think now is entering wilderness period
so zzz
hahaha
suddenly feel very vulnerable
very sensitive to things ard me
zzzz

but thk God for frens
who are there in times of need:D
and i wanna be there for u all too!:DDDDDD
lovessssssss

anws this wk cfm v busy le
project MTGS! with diff grps
camp
i wonder how to handle them
and make sure they will all be effective man!
GOD!

omgzzzz
haha
its a CRAZY WORLD AND TIME MAN!
HAHAHA

BE STRONG!

2009-06-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

recently have been closer to choir mates

hanging out

having fun tgt

take loads of pictures

share about life and stuff

serve tgt

i really enjoy this few weeks to being together with them

not just those in the photos but all who have stepped into my life

serving in a big ministry is easy to feel lonely as though u are invisible

wk in wk out just come and serve den disappear

but i truely understand how a family would work in sucha big ministry

and i really want to try my best and all my frens to get to know more ppl in the ministry

making them feel part of this big big family

so that they in turn wont feel so lost or invisible

anws had a really really good fellowship yst till 6am

near barney's hse

with barney tiramisu weiye lehbit hk

there are areas in with we suppress in

weakness we dont wanna show ppl

but aft yst i let a little out

i feel better

i feel that hey! its not that bad aft all

knowing everyone goes through such stages

and i felt really encouraged and challenged to do more seeking

be more discipline with my life

and not just waste my moments away

times when i feel so insecured and inferior

just by looking at the people ard me tat are close to me doing better and doing wat i desire to do

i ask myself and God is it really for me?

and i ask wat about me? have u forgotten abt me?

i feel sadden that why isnt it me?

and ya i suppress it and put on my bubbly facade

really feel like crying

but who to turn to ?

who will understand?

who will listen and not judge me?

who will allow a shoulder for me to cry and realise how stupid i am?

zzzzz

i really wanna go SOT!:D

SOT nxt year

but in the natural realm its impossible

needa serve bond

but theres such a great desire to go SOT before i step into the marketplace

i dont wanna go out and stumble

but i wanna be strong when i start in the work world

pls pray for me and i will start to pray and fast abt this!:DD

SOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!:D
yes!:D

make the feelings go

so i will feel better

nt so guilty to stealing glances

blah blah

temporary

hopefully:D

zzz

2009-06-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

went out with loves to marina ECP and potato's hse!:DDDD

super tired

now uploading peektures to FB!:DDDD

300plus

zzzz

anws super enjoyed today!:DDD

with doll,potato,barney,tiramisu and lehbit!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

lalalala~

just frens are hard to come by

cherish and love everyone one of them man!:DD

and we chatted today

got to learn alot more about den

like how chatty barney is

and barney's voice ROCKSSSSS! TO THE MAX!!!OOOMMMMMMMGGGGGG!:D

and potato is soooo cute!:D

and lehbit can really play the guitar well:DDDD

and tiramisu's cell backgrd

and doll is still so cute!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

xoxo

zzz

will be away for 3 days!

and will be back with eyebags

tat i cant predict!:DD

hahaha

2009-06-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

supper!:D

tau huaying with justin, barney, tiramisu, nana and lehbit!:DDDD

yummmmmy~:DD

i have been suppering too much to often le!

but i super enjoy myself:DDDDDD

more photos at my FB acct. :DDD

loves

xoxo

anyways this few days been thinking alot

but nv really manage to blog it down

dont have time HAHAHA!

reflecting about myself and people around me

the relationships that i form

the way i relate to people

the image that i bring forth to them

think overall people will not take me seriously because

of the way i portray myself?

im v loud, v rara, v joker

but actually the real me is a v quiet and shy person

i have been "trained" to be so vocal, so loud hahaha~

i still love my quiet times

i still love to be on my own

i wish to be less loud in front of people

its a habit to be so vocal le

HAHAHA><

coz i want people to take me seriously

that they can depend on me for things:D

i like being a listening ear

i like to understand ppl and how they feel in situations

i like to be a support to people

i like to give

i wanna be a fren:D

2009-06-10T08:45:00.000-07:00

shall start off being random and say tat
yst on the way home saw a young man driving a super nice BMW convertible
but he was digging his nose at the traffic light
HAHAHAHH!:DD
and now im in sch lab
blogging away coz im really so bored~
one more hr to the nxt lesson
how i wish i could skip it but ya...HAHAA

anyways had a busy wkHAHA
haha sunday decided to go clubbing with ying,rabia,joey,js,ericko,dyanna
at POWERHOUSE:DDD
we queued for FREAKIING 3 HOURS
before we could go in la!
WTH!
><
went in suupppeerr packed man!
overload of guys there
crazzzyyyyyyyy
dance until so tired
leg muscles all firm le
HAHAHAHA:DDD
wed again~

wed:D
went to jw to find doll,alvin,thomas
for lunch
end up all busy ppl arh
only i super free
met them individually
HAHAHA
and stayed with thomas at jw church
i study he did forecast stuff HAHA
and i saw AHHHHHdi the whole time man!
omgggggggggggggg HAHAHAH!:DDDDDD
and also played with baby mckayla for awhile AHAHA
did i mention she is a super smart baby!:DDDDDDd
i love her to the max man!!
carry her until today arm suan suan de
HAHAHA:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
den went pm
den went shopping with papa!:DDD
bought wallet, shoe and bag=75dollars
:DD
and saw a girl omggg the way she wear SUPER CHUI! HAHAHA
really
the back is like corset style but use like ribbon tat kind of material to tie
den mid portion is bare
den can see her bra ma BUT HER BRA DAMN CHUI
omg
pls think b4 u wear cans
omg

i realised the current phone im using helped me to gain alot of new frens
coz my phone is so cute!:DDD
hahaha
this yr i made loads of new frens!:DD
so super happy and coz im always hanging out with them
i miss them so easily HAHAHA!:DDDD
quality time!:DDD
lovelove

and yst chat with barney, aaron and doll
so FRI dinner and supper?
sat mahjong?
sun ECP:D

hahaha~~
busy
holis are here !!!

2009-06-06T11:25:00.000-07:00

zechariah 4:6
6 So he said to me,
"This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty.

2009-06-06T09:19:00.000-07:00

SOS!:D

was aweeeeesommeeeeee!:DDD

hahaha

but we had to sit on stage!HAHAHA

i think jonathanwong was really funny HAHAHA

the bs was awesomeeeeeeeeee

sos is super interesting man!

was a whole new perspective of this book!:DDDDDD

and den off to supper!:DDD

at first we stood divided HAHA

but dont know why suddenly all decided to go tgt

and with us!:D

so theres ALVIN, JUSTIN, HANKIONG, BEN,CANDICE,NANA,THOMAS,PEREZ, MICHELLE, JAMES,WEIYE,KWOK LEONG

to makan sutra!:DDD yummy

ha!

super enjoy my fellowship time with them

kept on laughing loads man!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hahaha

a rare choir photo!

hahaha

its really a privilage to be a part of this ministry

in the beginning i didnt enjoy serving as much even though i love to sing and all

but as the days pass i began to find frens

started to be more open and vocal

and now i super enjoy serving and serving alone with this people!:DDDDDDDD

esp my girls CANDICE, RUBEZ, RONIA AND ALTHEA:DDD

the best sopranos haha [bias a little]

love!:DD haha

anws i just missed an opportunity

i really regretted it

was talking to chervelle about it

i really didnt know wat i was thinking at the pointSSS

when i didnt go and sign up for it

i really didnt know

and now i regret really bad

its my desire my dream

and now i just let it go

anws velle asked me to ask bel if she could help me

i was so scared to ask la

i mean its soooo last min and its 1am

the audi is like tmr

but i just went ahead to sms her

at least the end i tried?

oh man!

but after saying all this

i really still thank God for breakthroughs in choir

and opportunities to serve more

not just the wkly congregation

but oso fellow choir members

and making more frens in the midst!!!:DDD

love it!

i know i missed this opportunity

i learnt my lesson

the nxt one i will hold on to it tightly! dont let it slip away from me!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

God :D

2009-06-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

decided to go to mount faber
school ended earlier
so
tada~
its such a gorgeous place man
especially at the henderson wave bridge place
at 4-5pm period
the wind is super strong
the scenery is really gorgeous
and just sat there and enjoy the slow passing of world man:DDD

good place to hang out and chill
more photos check out my FB
:D

im really addicted to vulnerable by vanessa hudgens!:DD
love the song and lyrics~

2009-06-02T08:43:00.000-07:00

Isaiah 40:30-31
30
Even the youths shall faint and be weary,

And the young men shall
utterly fall,
31 But those who wait
on the LORD
Shall renew their
strength;
They shall mount up
with wings like eagles,

They shall run and not
be weary,
They shall walk and not
faint.

life in nothing without the process of living it
the ups and downs
the trials and tribulations
the happy and sad times
many a times we get disappointed and discouraged by people and circumstances
we get angry
we sulk
we get frustrated
pull hair and everything

but at the end
i know things will work out good for those who trust in Him
and dilligently seek after Him:D

get tired and discouraged
but lets pick ourselves up from all of it
and run with God:D

know a good plan and destiny lies ahead of us!
:D

2009-06-01T09:18:00.000-07:00

today was a super suay day for me man!
hahaha
got up on the wrong side of the bed
firstly: i was late and i forgot to take my hp which i needed it for the day and thus i skipped tut! HAHA
second: my eye hurted so badly on the train due to my contacts so i took it out intending to rewear it. but i just would stay in and i ended up dropping on the mrt floor!
third: i had to go to yck mrt and wash it with wash before i put it back to my eye><
four: i had a massive mucus production THE WHOLE DAY! omg la! HAHAH super big some la, so paiseh
had to keep cleaning my eyes ><
five: i tried to call hankiong to meet him but turns out the no. was wrong! and the person kept prank calling back and make fun of me...but i didnt care...just pissed off man!!
six: i stained ><
seven: i realised aft mtg hankiong he oso copied my no. wrongly la!!!! HAHAHAHA
eight: we were late for our movie HAHAHA

but den again i really enjoyed myself today!
i manage to have a good breakfast...vv essential for the whole day :D
group project was CRAZIEEEEERRR den usual...no idea why
the movie MONSTERS VS ALIEN was so cute..i really love BOB the blob man!!!! :DDDDD so cute! omg
and i had 2 BIG JOKES OF THE DAY
courtesy to mr tan han kiong :D
1.we both saved each other's no. wrongly!
and the wrong no. was half 8 and 4 AHAHA
2. and he sms the wrong person the following sms: "sorry i will be tad late. need to wax my legs. hair showing through the leggings" HAHAHAHA...had a previous inside joke
omg the person must have been SHOCKED HAHAH!
i couldnt stop lol-ing :DDD
thks man..tat made my day

den aft movie we went to chill and crap at THE CATHY which hankiong's cell ppl
so funny HAHAHA
and joseph alvin and hankiong ARE ALL CRAPPY guys man
omgggg
and i love candice!!!
tmr shall post some pictures :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

im rushing my freaking report for tmr
and i have 8am mtg haha
and candice and amanda keeps spamming my FB MAN!
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I think about you and me
I get a litlle weak in the knees
I feel the flutter of a butterfly
Sometimes I can hardly breathe

So babyHold me now
I can't tell if I am lost or found
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
And I don't know how to let you in
Or let you go
I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now
Please baby don't let me go
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
I know for sure that you're the cure
Coming down with a case of 'I love you more'
I don't want to be vulnerable

When it comes to this book for us
I think it's time now to turn the page
But I don't wan to say I love you first
But my heart it can hardly wait
So babyHold me now
I can't tell if I am lost or found
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
And I don't know how to let you in
Or let you go
I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now
Please baby don't let me go
'Cause I've been living in a dream
And I don't want to wake up
I know for sure that you're the cure
Coming down with a case of 'I love you more'
I don't want to be vulnerable

I don't wan to see you hurt
Don't you worry baby girl
Take my hand, understand I'm afraid
To tell you the very worst
That you want to hear me say
When you say it here tonight
Will you mean it for life
Will you tell me everything
That your heart is really feeling for me
So I won't be vulnerable

2009-05-31T22:00:00.002-07:00

HAHA
sorry my fwens
;[
my loves
for upsetting everyone
making everyone wonder what happen?
;[
sorry doll
sorry barney
sorry lehbit
sorry potato
sorry laopa
;[
i didnt want you all to see, to know
but
hahaha
hope we will still be frens forever:D
lovess

2009-05-31T22:00:00.001-07:00

being vulnerable
now i understand how it feels
so scary
no wonder~
zzzzz

2009-05-31T18:09:00.001-07:00

photo:DDD

hahahaha

alvin, hankiong, candice and myself

:DDDDDDD

2009-05-31T18:09:00.000-07:00

had a suupppeerrrr busy week sia!!:D
SOS
mini emerge
GDOP!
sing sing sing~
literally HAHAHAH
but i really enjoyed myself alot while serving!
the best week !:DDDDD
FB for pictures:D!
woots

and FB yucks man!
hahahaha
been having so much trouble uploading photos ><
boos~

but im happy cause im gg to watch
MONSTER VS ALIENS
TODAY
with candice thomas and alvin
woots~

2009-05-30T10:48:00.000-07:00

i love peach blossom flowers
beauty and love
:DD

when is the right time?
who will love?
why do we wonder?

blossoming like a peach blossom flower~
HAHAA
:D

2009-05-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

will caning a child nowadays really work?
why are there so may dissatisfied families?
why are families breaking down and couples divorcing?
why are there so many broken and rebellious teens?

is society and families so bad?

how about marital relationships
and parenting

what is a home?
what is love?

who listens?
who cares?

2009-05-27T19:24:00.001-07:00

i have a sudden craving for two things:
1. to go mount faber before sunset to take photos [so beautiful]
2. ikea's sweddish meatball with the yummylicious sauce

hahah
prolly because its morning and im cranky
and im bored blogging away
and i have to do project later on
with a viva + report to do which is due nxt tues

and i really miss my choir mates hahaha

and i really wanna watch MONSTER VS ALIENS which is out TODAY! [i seriously love the blob thingy haha]
and i have dinner with my CELL! :D tonight
haha
ok prolly the last thing to do today is something im looking forward too:D
hahahahaha
im bored~
i need some crap
joey is like so good girl doing i think elearn day tut
and im still blogging away

i cant wait for tmr
and have dinner with my girls
and cant wait to sing for SOS
and have SOS bs!
woots!
:DDDDDD

little miss monoface
i learnt the stupid mono face from chanel le la
idiot!
;[
haha

so cute:D

2009-05-27T19:24:00.000-07:00

apologise to all my school frens
hahaha
im seriously sucha a cranky morning person
i just hate gg to school in the morning
i feel half asleep
;[
just dont like to talk
coz i know i can get easily provoked
hahahaha
cranky
is the word
:D
pardon me~
will wake up faster
:D

2009-05-27T08:19:00.000-07:00

1 Corinthians 13:11
11 When I was a child, I spoke as a
child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I
put away childish things

as i was just praying
i suddenly though of this verse

guess sometimes i can be quite childish
in showing my anger
wanting things my way
friendships
but i must learn to put all this away
coz im getting older
and im gg to graduate from nursing and into the workforce
i need to be more rational, more bold, more mature, wiser
so that i dont always stay as a child in thought, understanding and speech

also my heart is fragile like glass
i may look strong on the outside
but inside im fragile
i seek
i want
i demand
but not always i get
and i get jealous easily
hahha
which is bbbbaaaaaddddd
HAHAHA
but even as i go on
pray that God continues to be my anchor
holding me down firm on His solid rock
so that my heart will stop wavering and pondering
on things so trival
but to go after things that are BIG, dreams that i have
:D

yupp!

2009-05-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

ran with fafa
went gymming with joey, js
and joked with mariam
HAHAHAHA:D
suupppeerr enjoy today man!:D
picture summary of the day
:D
and had girly talk with joey and js hahah
over lunch
suppeerr enjoy:D
talk about relationship stuff
hahaha:D
*ponders ponders*

den went shopping with CANDICE! love and rubez! LOVE
hahaha
i spppeeennnnntttt waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy tooooooooooooooo much
HAHAH
100 plus?
BROKE!
HAHAHA
must survive the rest of mth cans
OMG
blessings blessings
i pray
:D
hahahaahah

2009-05-26T08:36:00.000-07:00

drink down home made liang cha
read a good book
put on FACESHOP vitaB mask sht
and off to slp
:D

i enjoyed choir prac loads!:D
and shop with candice TMR:D

2009-05-24T20:48:00.000-07:00

im so puzzled by how ironic humans can be
and the word RELATIONSHIPS

its a funny to want sth and not want sth
to want to get attached and not wanting to get attached at the same time
izzit fear that makes people ironical?

but yet ppl enjoys the process of falling in love
and being on cloud nine
the fluttery feeling inside
and reason for smiling to them self?
no?
hahahaha

u form relationship
getting to know one another as frens first
may days wks mths yrs pass
and den u discover a new feeling arising
some tingles in ur heart when u see the person
or u just wanna say their name

but den at the same time
u feel afraid
u say u dont want to get attached yet
and ppl ard u ask
how is this person...any progress?
hahahahah

isnt it ironical to say oh theres nothing la
just frens just frens
with a special feeling inside of u?
hahaahah

why God?
are we made to feel this way?
and how do we know we are loved back too?
HAHAHAHAHAH
:DDDDDDDDD

imagine a world without feelings and emotions
:D

2009-05-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

i must say how much i love pst mike's svcs
really see the power of God in a very very close manner
that we yearn for in our quiet time man!
and he showed that it was not difficult
just gotta to be more dilligent to seek God and believe God is with me and in me
and BAM!
there the presence of God will manifest

i never cried so hard
i never laughed so hard
is difficult to feel such emotions in the natural
and for long period
but such release and joy from God goes to a whole new level

i sat there laughing so hard today that i could feel my abs le
HAHAHAHAHAHA
i yearn for more man
:D

anws went for movies with candice love and alvin chan!
HAHAHA:D
love NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 man!
suuuppeer funny
i love the cupids, the jumping balloon dogs, the thinker
just everyone in the movie
4.5/5
if u want a good laughy show:D

i wanna watch monster vs alien !!!

2009-05-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

today is such a GOOOOD day
hahahaha:D
first had fellowship with idy and sop helpers at macau express
really enjoyed myself fellowship with everyone
and getting to know one another better!:D

and today svc
MAN!
if u missed it
u really miss big time
once a year
from glory to glory, strength to strength man!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i really love the presence
the substance
the faith
the weight
the atmosphere
the tears
the joy
all in one svc
WOW MAN!!!!:DDDDDDDDDDD

2009-05-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

joey and suee
we are tooo cuteee! for school!
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
hahahahaha
i love my sad face
so cute
hahahaha

2009-05-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

so much in life to find
wat are u searching for?
:D
music.love.joy.beauty
things that make life more colourful
:D

today aft sch went out with candice LOVE!:D
hahaha
shop shop
but sadly can only window shop :[[[[[
bo $$$$
hahaha
but i enjoy my fellowship with u love!:D
thou my legs hurt alot from walking
due to previous day's exercise
HAHAHA
sorry
nxt tues date again!
:D

tmr start 11
so rare
hahaha

2009-05-20T08:54:00.000-07:00

credits frm: www.ilovevsbags.blogspot.com

i saw this 2 bags i really love
the first pink tote is wat i wanted for a long time
and the black handbag damn sexy and chio !
:DDDDDDDDDDD
but $$$$
dad wont allow me to spend money on these sio
*sobs*
blessing?
hahahaha

2009-05-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

today went gyming with joey and chanel <3
hahahaha
wasss supppeer fun!
:DDDDDDDDD
i like to gym now
haha
not cause alot of guys
but! coz i had good company!
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
lose weight tone up and be healthy :D

dont think too much susu

2009-05-19T09:21:00.000-07:00

i know i can be sucha bitch a times
im also human
i show im upset
or merely pissed off
black face
low counternance
blah blah
but i apologise
i feel vvvvv bad if i black face anyone
;[
i know i shldnt
but i cant help it
but im trying to help myself
not allowing my emotions to control how i feel or think
or let my mind anyhow wonder
and make myself miserable

i dont wanna lose friends become of my emotions!!!!!!!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

but i know there are areas of my life i shld be focusing on rather den all the crap shit thoughts in my mind that makes me upset or doubt myself or God
so yup

I CAN DO IT

God bless me with a good man
a better man
in time to come
hahahaha
:DDDDDDDDD

2009-05-18T08:42:00.000-07:00

i was super emo in the aftnn luh
omgggg
hahah
but me being me i cant emo for too long hahahaha
happy go luckiness overpowers toooooo much
HAHAHAHA
and so b4 long i became normally again
sorry love for showing my attitude to u too
! sorry
xoxo:D

usual monday
VE prac
I SIMPLY LOVE VE SIO!
hahahaha
all the people
HAHAHAHA
RAWKS!

tmr theres mtg
choir
and research to be done
YIKES
so tired
GOOODDD
u are my strength sio
wed i better run and gym sia
!!!
:DDDD

ALL THE BEST JS! FOR UR ASSESSMENT TMR
U WILL PASS
I CONFIRM FOR U LE!
AND I LOVE U CHANEL
:D
U ROCK!
hahaha

2009-05-17T21:48:00.001-07:00

hahah
mummy say i got smelly feet
><
and she dreamt i told her i had sex le
-.-
how nice
HAHAHAHA
:D

im hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
but im fastttiinngg
after a very long period of not fasting
HAHAHAHAHA
:D

2009-05-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

im sucha coward

now who do i tell?
i always tell people not to keep to them selves
sharing out will half the burden
but i like to keep to myself too
im just too afraid to offend
too timid to say how i feel
or my burdens or sadness
i like to beat ard the bush
and not say anything regarding the emotions
just facial expressions
i just like to say im feeling sad or angry or anything
but not the reason behind it

but who do i tell?
can i tell?
wat are the consequences?
will it be kept safe?
is there a friend to trust?

im just a happy go lucky girl
:DDDD

2009-05-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

i hate projects!
but i definately LOVE my group HAHAHA
everyone is so tired
im so worried for tmr's ppt
the time limit
URGH
hate
hahahahahaha
:DDD
hope to do well man
our first every presentation for this yr for our grp
:DDDDD
<333

now i have to resist eating my supper
my lovely CORNFLAKES! w strawberry
yummmmmyyy~
hahahaha
*RESIST!*

:D

2009-05-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

people are always searching
searching for purity or serenity
searching for something more to life
searching for life itself
searching for love and acceptance
searching for a purpose
searching for a direction
searching for a sign
searching for loved ones
searching for a partner, a friend
searching for the spiritual realm

when one finds wat one was finding for
isnt it like the picture above
of serenity
of beauty
of joy

wat are u searching for?

im searching for a true friend
a sole friend
one who sticks with u
who encourages u
who look for u first in bad and good times

one day i hope to be at the place in the picture
i hope to find more joy
more laughter
more smiles
more realness
more shared burden
more love

someone a bit more tangible
of course GOD is always number one:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways theres always a FIRST time ride
had my first opportunity to ride on a motorbike!
YIKESS
seriously i still dont really prefer tat mode of transport
hahahahaha
four wheels and sealed up would be much preferred
but anws thks loads! fren for the freeeeee ride home!

see singapore in a different view
HAHAHA
in a noisier.faster.windy view
hahaha
but i dont like motorbike cause it means i cant talk or listen to music
HAHAHAHA
only noisy
hehehe

:D
thks fren!

2009-05-15T09:20:00.000-07:00

baby mason love
ommmgggg so cuttteee!
watch baby and me
!
its sucha niceee movie!!!!:DDDD
baby love!:D

2009-05-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

haha
blog super dead
coz i have been dammnn busy and tired!
from sch!
hahaha
its S-C-A-R-Y
hahaha the workload ><
anyways yst company fammy for training
at the stadium
which happen to have HOOOOTTTTTT guys running haha
and its DDAAAAMMNN to the core HOT haha
hot bod hot face
haha
and one from DB
half burmise half korean
KOREAN!!!!!
damn cute
with his small eyes
haha
okok enough!
shallnt share abt him le HAHAHAHAHAHA

anws i have assessment tmr
at 8AM
LIKE WOW!
wth
im tired
hope brain will be awake tmr man!
DANG!
><
stupid eye dressing thingy
hhaha

2009-05-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

do something about it
yup!
:D
hahahaahahhahahahaah

2009-05-08T19:52:00.000-07:00

the SECRET YAKULT SOCIETY
presenting members:
greenapple-rabia erlina
original-fam honey
grape-me!

:D

love them all

alot to do but we still enjoy the process of doing it:D

projects aint boring with them in the team

FIGHTING!:D

2009-05-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

lots to say
but lots of fear
heart's heavy
but mouth is shut

seems to be fear
hatred
bitterness
jealousy
disappointment
all mixed into one

izzit alrite to feel like this once in awhile?

2009-05-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

I LOVE NR0722!
EVERYONE RAWKS!
had a mini class photoshoot
camera kindly sponsered by me!
HAHAHA
more photos from shoot pls refer to my FACEBOOK!
enjoyed myself so much!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

this photo is so classic!

ahbengahlian and macik fatimah haha

AND I OSO LOVE MY SUBGROUP

aka SECRET YAKULT SOCIETY n joker club

haha

honey,fammy,erlina,rabia and myself!

2009-05-06T03:51:00.000-07:00

been quite awhile since i really updated my blog
been busy with school and choir
everytime i wanna blog i lose the mood to do so
haha

like now
no mood le
bye

i have 2 ppts to do
dang!
haha

2009-05-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

sun,wind,ppl and fun!

tat was on fri!

sops outing at SENTOSA!

photos on FB acct!

den pastamania with loves

and clubbing at phuture!

i was suuupppeerr tired tat day man

didnt really enjoy as much

had like tsunami of guys

irritating

HAHAHAHA

and pst steve munsey

wow

awestruck

his sermon

spoke right to my heart

and just at the right time

edified

lifted

changed mindset

HAPPY HAPPY!

:DDDDDDDDD

2009-05-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

My soul sings
To my Saviour King of Kings
I need You
You are everything to me
I love You
So much more than anything
I'll live for You
Jesus You are everything
You're all that I want
You're all that I need
You're all that I want
You're all that I live for in this world

Jesus
You are all I need
JesusYou are everything

im dying
im finding
seems like im gg back
so scary
holding on to God promises seems so tough
i keeping all
yet again
my feelings and tears
i find no one
seems like im alone again
is it coz i didnt try hard enuf? or i tried too hard?
its so sad and dissapointing for me to feel this way
i dont want it
i will get pass it man
pull myself across this with God

all i want is you
coz im so tired

2009-05-01T21:26:00.000-07:00

i hate the feeling of being lost

the feeling of disconnected to the ppl i love

the feeling of being left out

but i dont know wat to do

coz im not drawn to it anymore

does it mean im doomed?

i think i left but physically im still here

2009-04-30T08:25:00.000-07:00

love joey!

love exercising with u!

love chilling and catching up with u!
WOOTS!

xoxo

nxt wk again! again!

always nice being able to catch up with frens

now i treasure them all more

coz only ONE MORE YEAR LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARHHHGGGGG!!

haha

anyways i seriously love my skill teacher
she is suuppeeerr nice and can teach well
gain my respect!
love today's lesson!
super fun!!!!!
RAWKS RAWKS!
shall nt hate sch la haha

anyways i have a super funny teacher
we wanted to ask a simple 1min qns hah
but she insisted that we find her the nxt day!
reason being: SHE HAD TO GO FOR LUNCH!
hahahahahaha
-_-
:D
and today we really meet her for less den 5mins
hahahaha
:DD

2009-04-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

so this is an interesting post
haa
of two special frens why?
haha
meet
1. vanessa
aka eva longoria

2. ying love!

aka alexandra ambrosio

gorgeous rite!

ying has the seh of her

little of the looks too!

im surrounded by STARS!

haha

woots

2009-04-29T02:26:00.000-07:00

SOS!!
anyone can help me
i have a problem with flash required stuff
everytime i go they will say that either i have turned off JAVASCRIPT or can upgrade flash player
so i did, go install and all and said was success
but when i try again it still doesnt work
so i checked javascript it is enabled le

so with JS enabled and installed new flash player
why still cant work flash required stuff!!!!
SO PEK CHEK!
i miss my you tubes! and pet society!!!
HELPPPPPPPPP
SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS

i will love u for life
haha

2009-04-29T01:18:00.000-07:00

i oficially hate school
coz of all the morning classes i have
tat starts freaking at 8am
is early coz sch is far awayyyyy
dang!
today was the worst
yst i went to slp thinking the nxt day lesson starts at 9!
and i had a vvvvv bad flu!
dang 2!
when i woke up it was 830
DANG DANG DANG
*sobs*
i was so pissed with myself tat i couldnt conc
so i decided to online shop during lecture
HAHAHAHA
so technically i missed TWO FREAKING LECTURES!
dangsss!

plus i hate school coz of the food
haha
fried fried fried and more FRIED
haha
someone SHOOT ME IN MY HEAD
thks
haha

anyways im happy
coz the mag i got IS HERE!
the korean mag!
haha
its like 27 BUCKS!
hahaahahaha
BUT! HALF OF THE MAG IS KIM HYUN JOONG PICTURES AND SS501~!!!!!!!!!!!
heaven sia!
haha
haha
haha
stupid flash player cant on
install 5 times
still nt working
dang!

2009-04-28T18:24:00.000-07:00

suppose to be cancer lesson
but im playing RC at lab
hahahaha
how nice
anws i passed my assessment
suuuppeerrr happy!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd
RC!:D

2009-04-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

i got this urge to get pink phones
:D haha
wanted the fujitsu lifebk in PINK
is dammmnn chiooo!
omg
so bimbo haha

thou is aint pink

is realllllyyy cool right!

advertised by david beckham siaaa!

haha

cool phone!

2009-04-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

school rawks
skills rawks
skills teacher rawks
am classes rawks

haha
i love school
but i hate being a joker
BUT! i just cant help it
haha
and im a jinx!
woots!
to eating and erlina
yea i rawk!
HAHA

btw BREAD TALK sells marble cake
that is suuuupppeer DELICIOUS and filling
today i ate it for breakfast at ard 730
last me till 1 plus for lunch
RAWKS
haha

nite

2009-04-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

who else but BEYONCE KNOWLES

my model celebrity role model

not stick thin neither obese

but voluptuous and curvy and gorgeous

haha

yup

its her

ahh i really love her

and she can singg!

YEAH

2009-04-23T08:00:00.000-07:00

NO FRIED FOOD AND SMALLER PORTIONS!
ok la
advice from jy
proteins

the hardest FRIED FOOD
almost everything is fried in school
dang
only yong tau foo!
haha
porridge?
haha
losing weight is a boring thing!
haha

but i will do it!
:D
is my goal MY RESOLUTION for 2009!
lose to healthy weight!

previously i lose
but is unhealthy losing
binge eating and puking all out
sometimes naturally some times i force
till its like a habit that i do
haha
so yup
i gain abit back le
:{

2009-04-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

making friends
have been sucha delight recently
i mean im always a very friendly person
but beside just being another hi bye fren to someone
i found that getting to really know the person is waaayyy more meaningful
and u feel belong in the insitution
like u have friends and not just a lonely soul that no one sees
u see their lifes and share their burdens and vice versa
and life gets a lot easier with friends :D

i guess i have been afraid
but stepping out made everything so different

and now i wanna befriends those who went through how i feel in the beginning
being the bridge
:D

2009-04-22T07:54:00.001-07:00

i have become a one day part time non officially cheerleader
the base!
WOOTS
is damnnnnn fun tossing ppl into the air
!
cheerleading ROCKS!
thou i cant cheerlead
like duh~
HAHA
but seeing fammy flying up there was !
WOW
how i wish
haha
anws
had CC today
OMG FB IS DA BEST!
period
coooooooolllllll
and shipei got new eye candy yo!
HAHA
the guy damn cute
good job shipei!
:D
haha

2009-04-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

DAY TWO OF SCHOOL!
helped out fammy with her booth!
VESPER CHEERLEADING!
woots
haha
super fun:D

AND LAB LESSON!

seriously i love my skills teacher man!

mrs cindy

she is damn nice and good

learnt donning of gloves and ot gown

yeah

super fun:D

except gloving is really tough!

YIKES

and our teacher cancelled thurs lesson

so that we all could go club crawl to support fammy love

:DDD

yeaaa SO HAPPY!

and choir prac was soooo suupppeer fun!

super enjoyed myself

frm travelling there

i met desmond [new choir member]

to mtg at lobby

[met jasper,candice love,jonathan,victor]

loads of people

and so glad that i decided to step out sia

to get to know the people

sooo happy!

choir alllllllllllllllll the way yo!

2009-04-20T08:48:00.000-07:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
><
im year three
actually quite look forward
really wanna be guai guai girl haha
so glad im in same grp as fammy!
and rabia erlina honey
WOOTS~~~
haha

joey!
haha
super funny
so many yr 1 GUYS!
haha
prolly nt all frm nursing
but still happy to have candies for our eyes!
HAHAAHA

:D
woots

2009-04-19T06:19:00.000-07:00

in about 11hours
im gonna be officially YEAR THREE!
omg
*faints*

YEAR THREE
can u believe how time really flew soooooooooooooooooooo damn fast
yikes!!
*panic button activated!*

seriously

going back to school always give me a mixed feeling
happy to see all my frens and at least not so bored at home
but the amount of work and expectations makes me upset
and i freaky have many many morning classes!!! max 4 out of 5 days
dang!
God pls help me not to over sleep, otherwise pocket will have one big hole!
haha
:D

woots~

2009-04-18T10:35:00.000-07:00

http://letsloveonlineshopping.blogspot.com/

MY BLOGSHOP IS UP
DO PATRONISE
IF I KNOW U CAN GIVE DISCOUNT
HAHA
:D

2009-04-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

updates!
been awhile
haha
:D
last sunday went ESCAPE! theme park with fam,joey,luping and sam
pictures all at FB acct haha
just too many le!
:D

this wk went back school to help out with club crawl
make banner etc etc and play ben's PSP!
woots
addicted!
monday!! :D

tues went for choir prac
had so much fun
the leaders,helpers,asst helpers and new comers
super fun, v fruitful
got to know the people :D
really stir me to not just be an asst helper but a good one!
a better one ^^

thurs went REBEL and LIQUID
to celebrate our dearest ying ying birthday! :DDDD
with joey,fam,myself,sam,js,ericko
firstly rebel was suuuuuupppppppppeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrr quiet!
dancefloor only had us dancing
damn funny
omg
were super tired and no idea why
YING turns 20!
urgh so fast!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING!:D
the chiobu haha

fri overslept
end up rushing to AMK hub to watch 17 AGAIN
with pei,xiu,ben and shert
!:D
17 AGAIN! is nice
zac efron is HAWT haii~
4/5
:D is not another boring crappy predictable show
worth catching!:D
had fellowship cell
was so tired
eyes were heavy haha

today SAT!
had ice cream fiesta!
decorate ice cream!
think our cell's was the nicest of all ! HAHA :D
den rush for svc to sing
omg
rush rush
the songs buang haha
didnt know how to sing alot
but just flowww~

and countdown 2 days b4 sch start
URGH!!!
8am leh!
faints!

BTW im setting up now a blogshop
www.letsloveonlineshopping.blogspot.com
selling accessories
mostly worn once twice
earrings i didnt wear at all
if all sells well
may consider getting more to sell
i only pick more unique more feminine ones!
hope u will support
go check out!
xoxo

:D

2009-04-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

yes
guess its time to start giving rather than taking in
i really want to
not fame or recognition
i want to do something for my passion
i want to rise up
i want to increase my capacity

my chance
my opportunity
my desire

giving
giving
giving
giving
giving
giving

i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand
i will forgive and understand

2009-04-14T09:55:00.000-07:00

how could i?
how could i be so stupid?
how could i be so silly?
how could i be so blind?
how could i ever ever ever think in that way?
how could i even want to waste my time on such things?
how could i?

was i blind?
urgh
so disgusted~

show me how to live
show me your way
show me

light produces light
darkness produces darkness
is not just a DUH thing
it means sth to me
its a choice

2009-04-11T08:48:00.000-07:00

HELLO
pictures of self haha
been awhile har?
haha
anws fri went qingming with family!
suppeerr fun
:D
pictures can be found at my FB acct
go check out!
:D

2009-04-09T08:58:00.000-07:00

i seriously think my cat understands korean
hahahaha
coz when i said cat cat hi cat
she doesnt bother to reply me
but when i waved and said anhnyeong hasayo
she meow back and walked towards me haha
happened twice
HAHAH
so cute
:D

2009-04-09T02:36:00.001-07:00

a drink for you?
haha
vod cran, orange, lime and whiskey coke

yst went to ST JAMES powerhouse

ladies nite!
was DAMN packed

overflowing sia

crazy place

people: FAMMY, JOEY, YING, ERICKO, JS, ZHILIANG, GARY and myself

note: YING looks suppppeerr lady tai tai yst!

chio!

the semi tired and drunk us

LOVE

we were quite upset i ended at like 345 la

dang.!

hahahaha~

2009-04-07T12:44:00.000-07:00

{ random picture :D }

SHERT,PEI,WIN&ME!

someone kill me!
stop me from wanting to buy VS bags!
i have simply too many bags!
just too pretty! haha

no money

hopefully there will still be stock next month!

haha!!!

*faints*

2009-04-07T10:29:00.000-07:00

lets count :D
mmm
actually i think its countless
countless times when i lost my security in myself, in God
i mean we all have things we are insecured about right?
just wish they would go dont u?
haha

lets see
mmm
wats ur insecurities?
i guess its impt to firstly know where u are weak at right
before you can solve something
for me its appearance
growing up on the heavy side, with loads of pimples
i just didnt like how i look or my body
but now as i grow up, i learn to appreciate what i have
and the flaws that i can change i change as much i can
i put effort into it
but sometimes when u see ppl doing better den u
u get jealous right...like why am i so slow, why cant i be as pretty or as slim?
;[
thats me
thats my insecurity

lets brainstorm
den now with the problem
we must so lets find ways to change it
of course i pray about it, for confidence
den i give my effort to eat properly, exercise, doll up, makeup, take care of face
love myself:D
tough but once you start to see improve
theres this motivation that drives u to continue
doesnt it?
:D

lets secure it:D
once the improvement comes
DONT SLACK DONT GIVE UP
little result doesnt means the end!
its just the beginning right! :D
and though its tempting and disappointing at times
when ppl do better den you..inferiority sets in
but rmb we are all made differently
and God is fair! :D
and God is still in the midst of making us!
so dont get too impatient
continue to give your effort coz its gg to pay off!!
:D

and impt lastly
LOVE YOURSELF
if u cant love urself
dont expect to love others and be loved by others

rmb LOVE YOURSELF
:D

anws
im sooooo into korean songs now
><
my mp3 button spoil
so it perpetually stuck at SHUFFLE mode
WHICH I HATE!
coz my mp3 is screenless
><
so i decided to use my apple
which was chucked aside for abt half a yr le
haha
coz i didnt know how to use
BUT! TADA! i know how to use le
and make sure the songs remains in the mp3 everytime i sync it with itunes!
HAHAA
i was a little blur all along

><

kim hyun joong, kim hyung jun, kim kyu jong, kim jong hyun
haha
I LOVE
THEM!!
see some
similarities?
HAHA
all korean boyband singers and have kim/hyun/jong in their
names

2009-04-06T09:07:00.000-07:00

sometimes things seem to get so confusing
you really want it but yet somethings just seems to stop you
you get so tired
you get so burdened
you get crap shit
you get backstabbed
you get everything u nv planned to have

but i believe you have good frens
i believe you got good personality
i believe you got charisma
i believe you got heart for things you like
i believe you got passion
i believe you have loads of potential
i believe you will get what you want
imptly i believe in you
that you would be successful
so start believing in yourself and know no matter what happens
you have support!
you deserve better
:D

xoxo.

sometimes is v difficult to find friends
friends who are true
who are willing
who scarifices for you
who protect and stand for you
who is loyal
who thinks for you, and does to your benefit
who listens
who fights with you
who knows how to apologise
who knows how to treasure
who shows you the truth
who stands with you through dark and stormy times
who loves and takes no record of past wrongdoing

a friend.
where do i find one?

2009-04-05T10:03:00.001-07:00

i suddenly become v crazy over korean stuff!
><
haha
my top 6 lovess!
omg
*faints* haha
:D

ONE NUMBER!!
KIM HYUN JOONG
ss501
bof

number two :D

KIM HYUNG JOON

ss501

number three and long time fav.

DANIEL HENNEY
:D

*i have this preference for ppl who looks or is mixed bld haha*

number four

YOON HO

dbsk

shipei's husband

hot bod!

number five

JUNSU

dbsk

more and more handsome

voice!

number six

JAEJOONG

dbsk
for the almost perfect anime guy looks

living in the dream world

how we wish got such bf rite HAHA!

where to find this kind of guys ?

they are so RARE

possibility? 0.01%?

haha

hai~

so far i only two seen ppl who looks really really like YOONHO!

and they are really handsome haha!